suck it

Its now going to be more than a month long time I am neither able to forget nor able to forgive myself for my failure in GATE. Time comes and goes, people, the day and next, I try myself to convince for the loss but even today I find myself left at same place with same dejection and agony. I don’t know what to do because it’s severely distorting my personality n thoughts. That 'm feeling like the most unwanted and skill less person. I don’t know even if I can forget or make me for some new challenge but the second blow by TIFR who have screened me out pushing me back to the same place….don’t know how long it will take me to revive, or will be even to do it or not…sitting on the darker side of my own.