Good and Bad Time

Reached Hyderabad to enter in new dimension of life but very entry has started with tragedy. There was no booking as scheduled and informed to me, so was forced to stay out on road for several hours. Anyhow the issue resolved and got a stay. But the new life this is not going to be the end of problems..new place! new people! new environment! and in between the rush to find a place call house, place to get stuff which satisfy your hunger, so call food! and other sattelment! striving since first day. With the belief that "even Bad Days don't last long as Good Days!"

Shaky moments

Life is at its bottel neck! long awaited moment n dream of making money on my own is about to be true. but is also the other way, i had never felt that that thought of loosing the laxative moment of student life will be even more tough. I wish i forget all, i wish i could focus on my near bight future, i wish i could bring up my dreams....enjoy the life!!! but feel 'll be really hard without all what i bear today....no freinds, no teasing...

c'mon c'mon c'mon - we're gonna make it home tonight

c'mon c'mon c'mon - everything's gonna be alright

it's only a dream - it's all in your head

it's only some words somebody said

we can believe what we wanna believe

and you can believe in me

busy as a beaver

Days are flying now a days n the overwhelming load of work in project to be completed before my joining the job, and has made me count every hour in the time when my colleagues enjoying the days. life gives lesson every instant and we want or not, we need or not- we keep learning. Work, work and work!!! reminding me the lines from Dr. Kalam, "If you want your footprints on the sand of time, don't drag your feet. ....stealing a little of time out of work; but that's enough.!.

Retrospect

I don’t know how to reflect it, but it was a wonderful experience to meet him. I was at a hospital to meet my teacher’s husband who was admitted because of cardiac failure. He was lying on bed, calm and unpredictable, but a fistful of unpredictable questions! I was shocked but enjoying! I was clueless but having interest. I got someone who can shake me- wake me! Make me know I am dwelling in infinite world, there is lot much to learn and lot much not to forget….are u curious? And what is most memorable? Everyone should surprise listening to…and lastly the most unanswerable question…when we are going to meet again? For such questions silence is the only answer I have.

I know him

‘I know him’, thing is a common proverb popularly heard by us in day today life. But, is it true or having any significance? Every personality as different aspects such that what is true at one time is not true at next time. There is generous you and there’s mean you, you are honest as well as dishonest, creative at one time destructive at other, like wise sometime calm as well as chaotic. It’s not just a binary expression but a multidimensional figure which is contextual. And so even if the person tries truly to reveal himself it will only turn into fiasco, will be known as ‘a person with multi-personality disorder’. All what is there in the dish is the part of personality what we like to known.

No Regrets! No Sorry!

Life is a mirror….this was said to me in a teasing email few days back but it got recall today with the thought that, "if life is a mirror show me the mirror" after meeting a friend of mine. When I started with I had nothing much to say except spreading/expressing my frustration of unsuccess in life. I usual to say it all and listened but I got a reply I was speechless, but not hurted. The thought of ‘no regrets to life’ which I repeat very often among my friends is no-way new for me but today I was been told to me at a very correct time when I am going though a bad phase…this is what I need to learn myself than telling others of it. Thank God, I got some friends to show me the mirror.

Cheater All

Sitting today I was just thinking about people ideas and social behavior. Talking everyone, the thing I find to be common is a feeling of ‘Got Cheated’ at one or another instant of life by someone.
The self image for everyone is flawless, then who is the cheater? Somewhere sitting in me, you or someone else? Really unpredictable!!! Life is all like climbing stairs where we step over and over to reach a destination. These moves sometime hurt others unknowingly and many times strategically. But where the right stands and what to do? Strategies going to make you cheater and disobedience to them going to make you looser….what u want to be a cheater or a looser?
Question remains live ‘who’s the cheater?’

Belief

Belief is something which turns a common stone into God and is a basis of all the relations. The strength and stability of relations reside on this belief only, which last long in good relations. But is this a mutual affair? Belief for belief and impudence for impudence? I feel both yes and no both on the same time…yes, because you can’t go too long without a good response- a belief which tells dauntlessly that, I am with you in all your good and bad. And ‘no’ because when there is belief it needs no support, it is something which even a 1 year baby has when we throw him in air, he laughs. Bartering of belief is not going to last long whether it on some person or even on God.

Who’s there?

Everyone has an individuality which reflects in his personality, we could be influenced or infatuated by others but can never be dominated without a will. What we think and behave are ourselves responsibility and no one else can be an all-time controller for it. I don’t know when I am bemused no one cares but when I set to say something how come the same person has problem. Happiness and sufferings could never be a one sided affair, if you don’t like just say u don’t want it…but how u could be arbiter to say such things when you yourself have been engaged in such activitites…one-sided rules, one-sided conditions, one-sided opportunity, one-sided obligations. I can’t tolerate it anymore because I am what I am.

suck it

Its now going to be more than a month long time I am neither able to forget nor able to forgive myself for my failure in GATE. Time comes and goes, people, the day and next, I try myself to convince for the loss but even today I find myself left at same place with same dejection and agony. I don’t know what to do because it’s severely distorting my personality n thoughts. That 'm feeling like the most unwanted and skill less person. I don’t know even if I can forget or make me for some new challenge but the second blow by TIFR who have screened me out pushing me back to the same place….don’t know how long it will take me to revive, or will be even to do it or not…sitting on the darker side of my own.

Heal it or hatch it

Generation is changing so is the India. With the concept of global world, the taste of victory and celebration too changing, but what not is changing is the tendency to pick-pocket. I use this word because, the way people have accept the tendency of being corrupt there is no secondary place for such practices too. The most frustrating fact which i come across these days is that, those individual whom i had seen earlier as animus to the corruption are slowly and silently adopting the same phenomena with great acceptance. Not even that they defend their new choice with no intent of displeasure. I don't know know how long this going to be. How long you can hatch the system for your own cause..or if some heal is there.

Rediscovering Yourself

The year clock has gone a complete round today at my blog and the question is the same where it started as the occasion is same, The Gandhi Jayanti. The matter of happiness for me is that the mission I started alone for discovering ourself, discovering the Gandhiji in ourself has grown much more. The amazing thing I found in all this time is that people have more belief over others eyes. I have seen that getting the old wine in new bottle in Munna Bhai-II the respect for Gandhiji has grown as people can see what Gandhi has to do with common man even today. But the lesson of Gandhi will always be incomplete till it gets into the heart and mind of everyone. Till People learn to feel the pain of others in themselves, learn to become Indian. Anyway Mission carry through with hopes of a better time always…

Last Page of My Notebook

Its last! but not pessimistic, not even a thought of inferior to others...its last page of my notebook. Although it is last but when ever it comes to something important or distinguished, its the most favourite place to be mentioned. The importance of that page is most as its a year round activity center of the book..from cliché to critical, from important dates to cartoon of boring teacher, every inner self crawl over it as it get time. And when it comes time when notebook is full, its the last hope of the notebook to sum up the concluding moment of writing. If this all is there why to worry about being last!!!

Shivering Tears

If silence is louder than voice! then tears are definately bombastic.
Life has several reasons to be firm, and should say need to be strong at most occassions to be, a man. But, in the race of showing manhood it curtains the the persons own emotions. Tears not only show a pain but also lessen the worries of one while putting other person to think again n again.

See It Like This...

Individuality develops its own kind of understanding and it makes person think independent. Independent so much that often can't see into the eyes of other, can't feel the pain of other unless it pinch to yourself. And this individuality is so much that it decides the self centered emotions of one to harass other under own limit. In the real world, I feel the is no standard parameter of behaviour, n no one is so ideal that can make a universal remark for others to fallow. In such a situation, then what really a prophet is? nothing more than a ambitious, glib-tongued orator.....

Pillar in a Pinhole

Talking of Gujarat riots and Babri Masjid I don't know what really these days Muslims want. Like the two examples, Hindus in India too have also suffered a lot many attacks on them, probably lot more than Muslims in history; from Amarnath pilgrimage to Akashar Dhaam, but they never turned terrorist in global sense they way Muslims have turned, but have a soft heart for them still in current scenario. This way Muslims in India are behaving is not going to help anyone, but only the thing which is going to happen is that everyone in India and even globally, Muslims will turn impervious.
One more thing is which would like to ask these people that, did you ever visited Babri Masjid, I had been there when it was there and had seen it. I must tell you that, when it was there it was just a structure in memory of barbarous act of Babar not a Masjid because a large Lord Ram's statue was kept there in the building and people used to come there and pray. I think it’s a shame for any Muslim structure as it was against the basic laws of Islam, so better got demolished. And the way lots many Masjids in India have been founded in history are also example of religious terrorism by Muslims, Should a COMMON HINDU SUPPORT ANOTHER TERRORISM FOR THE CAUSE. Answer is definitely NO and you know it better.

Night Before Darkness

Yeh Sehar Hai, Ya Numahish Lagi Hui Hai Koi,
Jo Admi Bhi Mila, Istehaar Bankar Mila.
These lines by Saharyaar written for Mumbai is very true in the commercial capital of India where everyone looks to be moving without caring of other, with a very fixed selfish interest. But this sprit shivered, the movement stopped n also the selfish interest with not one or two but 7 major bomb blast in Mumbai life-line, the local trains. The city with people like istehar for the time come forward and showed cooperation and helping hand in such a time which was simply beyond kudos! People with sleeping humanity, waked up to get out of the darkness of trouble! trouble which had no relation between them except humanity for a new day light!

Memories Returned

I had something lost 12 years back, something forgotten to find ever. It had never imagined of it being back! But it turned back to me…It was amazed when one of my friend and class mate at 6th level wrote me back after 12 years through orkut when he is in Jadavpur University. It took me few mail conversations to identify him! Well I finally identified him but the most amazing thing for me was the cause he identified me. Earlier while he left the school at that time I had said him that ‘No one remembers anyone, it’s a race to reach first all where, and no one have time to look back to find those whom he lost in his life journey’. He said this was something really unexpectedly deep philosophical words said to him by a 6th class guy which although he just heard at that time but kept me in his memories for ever since then. I was amazed-stunned listener to him when he called me.

The Golden Catling

Time when AAIMS is celebrating its Golden Jubilee Year it is getting in political shadow again and again! Earlier it was reservation and now the autonomous status. The way the autonomous status of AAIMS is been tried to shackled is an alarm of all the institutions in India who have a have nonpolitical iconic status in their field. They way Mr. Health Minister is behaving is not going to stop and now after loosing his ground at AAIMS after court interventions his eagle eyes are on MCI. In the time when condition of health and sanitation is so poor in all around India at basic level Mr. Health Minister has no time or reason to do some good for them. The lack of doctors and the hospitals and more over the presence of the staff in the existing hospitals is no matter of worry for the ministry instead he looks to be more interested in the well going and already well guided institutions. He should realize that the real India reaches to AAIMS not just because it has the world class medical facilities and credibility, but also because of lack of proper medical facilities at ground level which is his responsibility too.

Jargon Of Life

Returning back to my blog after a long time I am with a topic to say something of characteristics of life The Jargon. Its very confusing na! Life n jargon, where the correlation? Actually it a good link which we feel in our life when we see for the question that why few are very successful in life, some few n some are very much loosers for most instant? Answer makes the topic crystal clear now. Its all on the ones knowledge of life! The art of living and striving to achieve the best out of life. This is all what we learn sometime with experience and some time with self-understanding with others view and some with teaching. This is the jargon of life! And the life has inconclusive list of these jargon in it.