Retrospect

I don’t know how to reflect it, but it was a wonderful experience to meet him. I was at a hospital to meet my teacher’s husband who was admitted because of cardiac failure. He was lying on bed, calm and unpredictable, but a fistful of unpredictable questions! I was shocked but enjoying! I was clueless but having interest. I got someone who can shake me- wake me! Make me know I am dwelling in infinite world, there is lot much to learn and lot much not to forget….are u curious? And what is most memorable? Everyone should surprise listening to…and lastly the most unanswerable question…when we are going to meet again? For such questions silence is the only answer I have.

I know him

‘I know him’, thing is a common proverb popularly heard by us in day today life. But, is it true or having any significance? Every personality as different aspects such that what is true at one time is not true at next time. There is generous you and there’s mean you, you are honest as well as dishonest, creative at one time destructive at other, like wise sometime calm as well as chaotic. It’s not just a binary expression but a multidimensional figure which is contextual. And so even if the person tries truly to reveal himself it will only turn into fiasco, will be known as ‘a person with multi-personality disorder’. All what is there in the dish is the part of personality what we like to known.

No Regrets! No Sorry!

Life is a mirror….this was said to me in a teasing email few days back but it got recall today with the thought that, "if life is a mirror show me the mirror" after meeting a friend of mine. When I started with I had nothing much to say except spreading/expressing my frustration of unsuccess in life. I usual to say it all and listened but I got a reply I was speechless, but not hurted. The thought of ‘no regrets to life’ which I repeat very often among my friends is no-way new for me but today I was been told to me at a very correct time when I am going though a bad phase…this is what I need to learn myself than telling others of it. Thank God, I got some friends to show me the mirror.

Cheater All

Sitting today I was just thinking about people ideas and social behavior. Talking everyone, the thing I find to be common is a feeling of ‘Got Cheated’ at one or another instant of life by someone.
The self image for everyone is flawless, then who is the cheater? Somewhere sitting in me, you or someone else? Really unpredictable!!! Life is all like climbing stairs where we step over and over to reach a destination. These moves sometime hurt others unknowingly and many times strategically. But where the right stands and what to do? Strategies going to make you cheater and disobedience to them going to make you looser….what u want to be a cheater or a looser?
Question remains live ‘who’s the cheater?’

Belief

Belief is something which turns a common stone into God and is a basis of all the relations. The strength and stability of relations reside on this belief only, which last long in good relations. But is this a mutual affair? Belief for belief and impudence for impudence? I feel both yes and no both on the same time…yes, because you can’t go too long without a good response- a belief which tells dauntlessly that, I am with you in all your good and bad. And ‘no’ because when there is belief it needs no support, it is something which even a 1 year baby has when we throw him in air, he laughs. Bartering of belief is not going to last long whether it on some person or even on God.

Who’s there?

Everyone has an individuality which reflects in his personality, we could be influenced or infatuated by others but can never be dominated without a will. What we think and behave are ourselves responsibility and no one else can be an all-time controller for it. I don’t know when I am bemused no one cares but when I set to say something how come the same person has problem. Happiness and sufferings could never be a one sided affair, if you don’t like just say u don’t want it…but how u could be arbiter to say such things when you yourself have been engaged in such activitites…one-sided rules, one-sided conditions, one-sided opportunity, one-sided obligations. I can’t tolerate it anymore because I am what I am.

suck it

Its now going to be more than a month long time I am neither able to forget nor able to forgive myself for my failure in GATE. Time comes and goes, people, the day and next, I try myself to convince for the loss but even today I find myself left at same place with same dejection and agony. I don’t know what to do because it’s severely distorting my personality n thoughts. That 'm feeling like the most unwanted and skill less person. I don’t know even if I can forget or make me for some new challenge but the second blow by TIFR who have screened me out pushing me back to the same place….don’t know how long it will take me to revive, or will be even to do it or not…sitting on the darker side of my own.