Chase for Dream

While going to my office when I see the juggees beside the road and people living there, I just think of the life-its ambitions-destinations-sufferings all for some hope- some dream... What are the differences in the one which these people bear, one which I bear and the one which people above me!?! Finding that in this race to chase our dreams how we all become so small that we loose our own identity, just remains a position-a responsibility with a name of no value without it! but life is nothing without it even....some get success to achieve it some loose the ground and spoil themselves and acquaintances...still in search of meaning for life as ever.

A-Day…B-Day…C-Day…D-day….

After a 16 hour long shift; that too very hectic at job, and some shopping on the way back returned exhausted to flat and slept unconsciously for whole night to get up fresh at morning 5 on my B-day. Day started with my call to my fellow who was in night shift to get update of fermentation batch for which we were facing some problem n got some bad news…started swing in the ambiguity of thought of whether to go to office or stay back to pay my commitment for the day…anyways I called all concern people for the permission of necessary steps to be taken and went to my colleague’s place to tell him the way to do all to troubleshoot the situation…all went fine and things got done to let me return in back in B-day mode. Went for Cinema with friends and thereafter for food; both just like formality but took lot of time…retuned at 11 and called my friend to get a bad news again…as have taken soporiferous drug to induce sleep because of life tensions…disgusting! What hell I am doing in this world can’t even help my friend. Got a promise that,‘ll not be taking anymore in future! Not sufficient for me…still asleep at 3 after listening!!! Birthday already gone…

Life Examination

Going though ups and downs of life. Had my appraisal review with my boss somedays back, don't know why I went there for...returned completly dejected and with low moral after that. Was talking everything except our contribution to the jobs and when things not even settled there he clarified that since you people of fermentation are at very bottom of the process its its very hard to indentify your role in sucess. I was called for a 15 min. talk which went upto 1.5 hours sucking all my time which was really to be given to process since I had to do three media fills that day. In such sitution when you are expected to deliver most was like someone has blenched you and sent back! annoyed! tried to make myself more in the job helplessly....

Practical in Life..

People feel I am very much practical in life n I too try to pretend like that only, but is it really true...Life has its own narration, which I never understand just in my attempt to look practical I hurt my own people and finally myself...but on the same time when required to be adamant looking, I break so badly that I myself fail to control myself...Uselessly trying to show what I am not!

Knowledge is hindrance to learning…

Got a time to express myself here after long time today. Learning is very important in life and so as past knowledge, but now a day realizing the fatigue for learning in myself…not so active, not so curious as before when I was in my college or to start my job. Broken pieces of my knowledge are putting impedance with an unfounded realization that, I should not worry, as I already know it. Have a serious apprehension that will loose my ground very soon, if will remain same. Time has already taken away my inspiring friends, and now if I fail to contain myself, don’t know where I will be…lets see! Atleast hope is there! n realization too…