No Words! No meaning!!

Words once again failed to mean what i want say...what I am feeling about. I don't know why I am no more natural as before...even after several urges! my excuses aren't letting me hide what is going on wrong inside of mine. Every piece has a memory of past; past which I don't want to come across. But being so is not at all giving me satisfaction, not even to person next to me. Finding myself totally helpless...not able to make someone understand me.

Robotic me

After a long time of 4 months I met my friends in Kanpur, probably in never to meet ever again kind of situation but don’t know why I am lacking my emotions this time; behaving very much mechanical; and amazing that people around too look me the same. Don’t know it’s my fault or others or the so called dunia ka dustoor. The moment for which I was waiting for a long time is there and I am no more excited, no more elicited, just trying to look like usual me. Paying the price of being social.

Office! Office!

Today is an off day for office but still feeling completely exhausted out of work. For the last three weeks of restless job that too for morning 8 to 12 in night or may be even beyond has sucked every thing out of me…tiredness of such extent that every night I used to sleep like dead body and then early morning again wake and dress that cadaver for another hectic day. I don’t know how long I can and how long I will be doing like this but the thing is that my dream of first job has shaken me too much…much more than any other dream before. Is this life???

First Shot!!

Today is the harvest day for first batch of CCM1 production facility where I work. In our regular work life we are three working hand-in-hand, but today when its the D-day (Also Dewali tomorrow, or may be today by the time I start with) all are on leave because of various reasons and responsibility of giving harvest lies on my side. Amazing fact is that, not only I will be doing this for the first time for the company as one of the landmark!, but also some thingh which I will be doing for first time for myself...Never done before, not even seen someone doing. Whatever.... have to do it! and always the best!

Searching....I

Stay happy in what so ever is the situation and always do the best! my own lessons which I were always talking about, I am not able to follow now a day. Looking around sometimes I feel like, the more you work, the more you have to work, people who were enjoying, are still enjoying. Now a days office work has raised so much that working on NOT LESS THAN 14 Hrs basis, which may even go upto 20 hours. And even this without any identity!
Today is Friday, people retuning with happy mood because they are going to get 2 days of weekly off because they work 9 hours...for me have not seen a single day off for last three weeks with no limit of work....Not even getting time to find me in myself.